Teardrops

from by JohnDionne

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lyrics

V1
The looking glass looking back sees and ugly man
I pulled my heart out, I got these bloody hands
Been to hell and back, still have the muddy vans
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We went from smelling roses, to pushing daisies
You left me frozen, you left me crazy
You left me no notice, no note to tell me when you'd break me
But now I'm looking to the heavens "why the hell you make me?"
No vitamin d, I never see the sunlight
I'm drinking ‘til the birds chirp, but sleeping when the sun rise
There's demons in my first verse
There's demons in my last line
There's darkness in my heart, I'm not playing parts, im the bad guy
The sun is shining but I don't feel like smiling yet
Looking at your number trying not to dial it
Thinking bout your heart, I still see it violet
But mine is black n blue, I beat myself up I'm so violent
N I am not striving or surviving in my environment
Cause every time I try I am reminded of the time we spent
I can't find my pride what's a lion minus lioness
But I am just a child that is lying in a giant mess...yes
Boys who aren't allowed to cry shoot bullets
Gimme another few years I woulda pulled it
On myself
And let my brain splatter
It's only once you're gone that they realize the pain matters

HOOK
Teardrops are taboo
Unless they're on your face in the form of a Tattoo
(We've been living a lie, living a lie)

Teardrops are taboo
Unless they're on your face in the form of a Tattoo
(Rip off the mask you been living inside, living inside)

V2
Walking round this masquerade
Losing face as I rip off this mask they made
It's quite tragic been type casted but I'm active tryna detach n cast off this acting phase
Communicating with humans is such a bad charade
Going thru the motions and the movements I feel my laughter fade
No one knowing truth from illusion dude I'm about to rage
All these people clueless fool this palace is a palisade
Ayeee what's masculinity?
For me it made me mask a massive part of my identity
The top tier don't drop tears, don't set that as your centerpiece
Don't let em see ya cry is the message that was sent to me
That sentiment so senseless it ain't worth a FUCKING CENT TO ME
It makes my skin crawl like a MUTHA FUCKING CENTIPEDE
Taught to toss my tender tendency aside
Tearing tendons, too much tension, I've been keeping it inside
I've been heading for a dead end thank the heavens I'm alive
I've been breaking I'm not bending,
I need a friend to tend to me, n tell me it's gon be alright, someone tell me it's alright, I can't look you in the eyes
Cause I've been socialized to the point all emotion dies
Controlled by an entity invisible to open eyes, a ghost or a poltergeist
This hoax made me so inclined to go get high
Depression is a prison, addiction was the mortar that kept it fortified
This cultures lies
The rules aren't always spoken they're more implied
Leaving me more or less mortified
Boys who never shed tears, shed blood, I believe that to the core inside

HOOK
Teardrops are taboo
Unless they're on your face in the form of a Tattoo
(We've been living a lie, living a lie)

Teardrops are taboo
Unless they're on your face in the form of a Tattoo
(Rip off the mask you been living inside, living inside)

credits

from Nothing Nice, released January 14, 2017
Produced by JohnDionne, guitar by Kyle Winkler, scratches by J. L. Kane

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JohnDionne Seattle, Washington

JohnDionne is a Seattle rapper and producer that recently released his debut album “Nothing Nice”. This 10 track, entirely self-produced album is raw, angry, and brutally honest.

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