Numb

from by JohnDionne

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lyrics

V1
Lemme tell ya what it's been like
Mutha fucka it ain't been nice
Life and death is a thin
Life & death...
I've had my heart shattered into pieces repeatedly
Picking up the parts scattered ain't a feat completed easily
filled with dark matter now my eyes bleeding frequently
Somewhere along the way that THC became a need for me, a fiend for weed,
Control alt deleted my idea of a deity
Depression so deep seeded I'm seeking a scene of greenery,
These demons be
Scheming & competing for a piece of me,
Dancing with the devil & romancing with reaper he's…
such a sinister snake...slithering off in secrecy
Convinced us his existence is fake,
The greatest trickery played, in history's days,
Satan’s so great at deceiving me
These odds don't add up evenly

BRIDGE
This ain't nothin nice, nothing nice
I've been struggling,
On the road to life, road to life
I've been stumblin
Slurring all my words,all my words
I've been mumblin
I got so much pain, so much pain
I can't stomach it

HOOK
I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna feel, wanna feel nothing, nothing, nothing
I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna feel, wanna feel nothing, nothing, nothing
Nothing, nothing nothing x 3
I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna feel, wanna feel nothing

V2
Take off the edge until my blade is dull as ...butter knifes
So concerned with others thoughts I need to Numb these ...butterflies
Even when they flood me with compliments I brush’ em off as just utter lies
Sitting back & watching all my dreams as they flutter by
Telling myself ill follow them another time
Constantly comparing myself to all these other guys
Looking up to rappers kept my fucked up patterns so justified
Can't manage to look the man in the mirror in the fucking eyes
Struggling, seeing double & mumblin’, stumblin’, I'm in trouble &
Can't walk a straight fucking line
...The sound of drunken ruckus has become my lullabies
The answers no! So don't ask me if I'm fucking fine

BRIDGE
This ain't nothin nice, nothing nice I've been struggling,
On the road to life, road to life
I've been stumblin
Slurring all my words,all my words
I've been mumblin
I got so much pain, so much pain
I can't stomach it

HOOK
I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna feel, wanna feel nothing, nothing, nothing
I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna feel, wanna feel nothing, nothing, nothing

V3
Lemme tell you what it been like
Mutha fucka it ain't been nice
Life and death is a thin line
Life & death
Black n red black n red, all I see is black n red
Same old story in the morning always crawling back to bed
I don't wanna see the sun
Delete despicable texts I sent I check my checking account and count astoundingly depleted funds, I need to run cause
I got shame to the gills,
I got rage hate and guilt
Poor me, I got pain gimme pills
It's pouring, watch the rain as it spills
Don't kill my spirit just, pour me, a spirit to kill
Drain the addy nell, add the Adderall, then smoke a bowl
I'm in and out hell I need to slow my roll
Take your Ritalin out your hand if you're giving it out I'm out of hand with no control
Someone hold the wheel and cause here I go
I lit the spliff I hit escape
I hit the bottle, hit the bottom, I hit the pavement with my face
I hit the hospital, I told the doctor yo I feel no pain, I wonder if he feel the same
I'm Jekyll and Hyde-ing from my dark side it got me feeling strange
Waking up like how the fuck I get home last night
Everything is fuzzy, so many unknown s last night
I swear that wasn't me it musta bean an alter ego last night
Told myself I'd take it slow last night
I got my keys I can't believe I fucking drove last night
Did I leave broken glass on the road last night?
I wonder if there's...blood on my bumper
did I.. hit n run after hitting a runner
and.. kill an innocent soul last night? Oh no my god

Hook repeats

credits

from Nothing Nice, released January 14, 2017
Produced by JohnDionne

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JohnDionne Seattle, Washington

JohnDionne is a Seattle rapper and producer that recently released his debut album “Nothing Nice”. This 10 track, entirely self-produced album is raw, angry, and brutally honest.

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